COVET!

I am seated behind some kids. The two directly in front of me seem to be from a higher standing in society. Their parents are considerably at a better point financially hence they can fund their daughter's desires. Well, it's just cute clothes, lip gloss, and soda.

I say this as it is the only clear distinction between the kids. Now, in front of the 'higher standard' girls are two from a lower societal standing. Again this is prejudice from the clothing of the four girls.

The two 'lower standard' girls keep glancing at these girls giggling as they sip their sodas and after a while, they apply gloss. Now, you can clearly see the human desire from the two to want such things but they aren't possible. Well, not possible at the moment.

I believe that in the future, not the near future but the future nonetheless, they will also be able to afford such luxuries but I wonder if it will matter then. I believe that they want to have such things right now. But again, I do not think it possible for them to have such simple yet difficult luxuries at this time. Well, I do not think that their parents can spare money for lip gloss as it can be considered a secondary need. 

I write this while in church. The Bishop is teaching about anointing and how God answers our prayers and I wonder if the girls are praying for lip gloss and soda. They might seem like funny prayers since I can easily get that for them but my intentions would be considered strange by society. But, if that were their prayer to God then I wonder how many of us pray to God asking for things that are not considered prayer items by the privileged? I wonder how many do not pray seeking God to grant them things that can be considered easily acquirable essentials?

I say strange since an older man bought two young girls, probably aged between 10-12 years soda and lip gloss. It would be innocent and kind to them but also very suspicious behavior by a man who barely knows the girls. It becomes a battle I wouldn't want to fight. Alternatively, I would get a lady to buy them for the girls, and in turn, it wouldn't be weird and also their prayers would be answered but would I be doing the same for everyone I saw covet after their neighbor's things?

A commandment reads that we should not covet and that is a very harsh command. I don't agree with it. I presume that everything I own at the moment is a manifestation of all I have coveted. You see, I saw someone with rings and they looked pretty on his hands and I decided to get myself rings and wore them. Now, I just look at my hands and I smile since like him, mine are also pretty.

So, when does coveting not become a sin? Does God understand that the reason I covet after the things that I see is because I consider them a better way of living so I chase after them and finally get them. Or, am I considered the embodiment of all I have coveted. So does that mean I am the embodiment of all that is considered sinful before God? Since by me coveting then have I broken a Holy Commandment...

So, should I repent for my sin or should I advocate for my sin, claiming that it seems similar but it is different. But sin is sin, so coveting is still a sin, no matter how much I can try and paint it differently, it is still a sin. But no part of me has the desire to change, I am yet to achieve all things and as I write this I have seen a cute cardigan and I will get it.

I suppose God will understand my sin. Or maybe it is not a sin before him as my coveting is limited to desire only and I don't forcefully take it from others. But I wonder, if I get a similar cardigan, would that be considered taking that from someone, the spectacle of how beautiful the cardigan looks, that is.

May God forgive me for that sin then. I suppose I'll continue doing it till death does me part. Hopefully, the failure to follow this commandment does not result in eternal condemnation.

Regards,

Thairu.